Throughout my life I've bounced from one religion or denomination to the next. Growing up Catholic but going to a Baptist school didn't help, and then attending to an all girls Catholic school confused me more. When I moved to the U.S I felt a great door opened, and I searched from one church to the next. Somehow I ended up converting to Judaism (agaisnt my parents will). And by destiny I went back to Christianity (Methodist). Last fall I took a philosophy class that opened my eyes to something new and I tried denying God, pushing towards atheism. Yet the friends surrounding me dragged me back into Christianity. I've tried to be Baptist, Catholic, Pentecostal, Church of Christ, Jewish, Methodist....Atheist...but there's always something.
Christianity seems absurd enough to be fake.
Atheism lacks something to seem absolute truth.
Either way, I sometimes pray...to who? I really don't know. I ask that if God is up there to help me. And when an argument comes up I can back up atheism.
we - Christian or Atheist- have no magical powers to fly beyond all those galaxies and bring proof that there is or there isn't a god.
It might seemed absurd that I'm in an atheist website writting a blog about God, but here in the bible belt - Arkansas - life seems easier with a bit of absurdity.
Any comments, suggestions, help on understanding atheism and easing the doubts of God, will be appreciated deeply :)