To be honest there is only one thing I truly miss about my years as a christian and that is the community that existed. There were people there for you no matter what time of day. There was always some event planned that you could attend and some of them could be a lot of fun. I felt like I belonged to a big family and most of my best friends came from my involvement in the church. I now feel like I have been taken from a city of friends and family and shipped off to the desert to live a lonely and mundane existence. Most of my once best friends from my days of Christianity now want little to nothing to do with me. I have no sense of a real social community and have no events to go to. I try to gain some sense of fellowship and community though this site and facebook, but neither can compare to what I had. I just miss it and I often feel lonely and deserted.