Due to accusations of trolling let me say this first. I am not trolling, I am honestly trying to figure something out here.
The problem I am facing right now is that I have had compelling experiences that point to spirits existing.
However I see that it is also possible that I have figured things out on my own and just projected on something imaginary. I am not sure which.
The experiences that I have had in the past are as follows.
1. When I was 16 I learned in a weekend the skills of camouflage. My only teacher was a spirit that took the form of a fox. In the military they it takes almost a month to get this skill. Is it possible that I figured this out on my own? Yes and this is why I am confused. There are many things that I figured out faster than other people around me so I see it as possible. I even took an IQ test and scored 141. So if I can figure stuff like that out that fast then it would fit. Did I just role play in my head as I figured it out? Did doing that lead to belief in spirits? It is possible that it did.
2. Ability to feel another persons aura/electrical field. Through some form of induction I am guessing. People that I have done this with tell me they feel something, heat is normal, others report an electrical sensation, some report other sensations. I have tested this on many occasions. By taking an object and impressing on it a physical sensation then handed it back. I have only had 2 of 3 possible outcomes. They feel nothing or they get the sensation correct. I have yet to find someone get wrong sensation. I would like to test this further even under scientific scrutiny if possible. But the fact that I have never gotten a wrong sensation response leads me to believe that this one is real. If anyone knows where I may go to test this please leave a link or information.
3. Physical sensations of energy flowing through me as I want it to. I have no other way to explain this one other than a warming sensation in an area that I am concentrating on in my my own body. If anyone has a possible explanation for this one please let me know. I have already thought about it being my imagination.
These are the category's of my experiences.
Did I just figure stuff out on my own and not want to take credit for it somehow?
These belief's seem to conflict to a point with others of mine. I am a scientist at heart. I love learning new things and making stuff. I view myself as an atheist but it seems like the spiritual conflicts with this. I don't believe in a god or anything. I don't claim to know for a fact how the universe was made. (I wasn't there) I find that I agree with many things that the general atheist community espouses. I have a problem with people trying to shove their religion down my throat. (I think most people have that one.) I think as critically as I can and atheist humor gets me going more than any other.
Am I somehow being a hypocrite viewing myself as an atheist but still having spiritual type thoughts like this?
If you have any feed back please let me know. Please try an make it constructive and/or thought provoking. I am not looking to get bashed with this, I am just trying to honestly figure this out.