It's difficult for me to take religious people seriously anymore, and I think that's been one of my biggest headaches. I care for my friends dearly, but when they start talking about god and jesus and the happy feelings they get in chapel, I have to stop myself from rolling my eyes or quirking my eyebrow in disbelief. I really really don't want to offend anyone. But they make it really hard for me to not make a remark about the things they say when they don't even know the truth about what they're talking about D:
I love debates because I love to think deeply about things and give my opinions on them. But I can't be so open about my opinions on religion here because by attacking religion some people will feel like I'm attacking them.
I'm also especially terrified of speaking out in my biology class. My professor is nice, and so are my fellow classmates, but I'm still afraid of being shunned by everyone D: I think I'm mostly afraid of accidentally acting like an asshole. I'm so excited about the knowledge that I know and about thinking critically about things that I forget about people's feelings and just plow right through without any regard to anyone.
I suppose that the best thing I can do is just think through everything that I want to say and try and say them all in a non-asshole way, but that gets tricky when I'm in the heat of the moment and when I've got things bouncing around my brain at lightning-speed, fighting to get spat out.
For instance, today I had a test for my biology class. One of the questions asked was something along the lines of "Why is science outside the realm of miracles? Give two specific reasons."
It took all my effort to not make any snarky comments. I wrote "1). Science is based off of evidence, and miracles have none."
and "2). Because science is constantly being disputed and new theories are being pushed forward, any evidence that comes up scientifically explaining miracles could be disputed later and cast out."
Asshole-ness averted (somewhat).
We'll see how he grades me.
[Edit] I think I should point out that I'm going to a small Christian college, which should help explain the appearance of the weird question on my test, and which totally explains my constant headache and the spiking anxiety I've been enduring for the past several weeks. [/Edit]