This is the first time i wrote something about my private life in the internet . it's hard for me to describe myself and tell others about the series of pain and humiliation that i have been through during my childhood and as a teenager in a muslim community.

The first thing my parents teach me about being a good human being and be blessed in my life is to believe in God blindly,and Muhamed too and don't doubt on this presence coz if i did it will be the most abhorent sin I ever made in my life and God will never forgive me and i will be in hell forever. I believed them of course I loved allah and muhamed , I learned how to pray from an early age. I remember the first thing they teach us in primary school after numbers and Alphabet is quaran it was essential.

the teacher always bring with him a long stick and the room over crowded and dark and the time of torment had begun , each one of us must learn by heart ever time a Sora of Quarn, they were very long and imposible for us to learn by heart , but we have try our best but he never was satisfied with us , every time we stand infront of him he gives us a dirty look and hit us in our hands and foot and oblige us to stand for hours in one foot , it was total humiliation . can u imagine a child of 3 or 4 years must learn quaran by heart and if he didn't he will be punished infront of all his peers . it was totally insane. I will never forgive him as long as i am alive for what he have done to me and to my friends . one time i brought my mum with me to save me from a class of torment and pain but she just stand there coz if she tried too save me from him he will say that she is against teaching small kids quaran. he hits me with along stick on my foot coz i didn't learnt by heart qauran , i couldn't go home on my foot .

from that time i start to hate anything to so with qauarn and God generally . and the same thing happened in the next years . they describe to us how god will punish us and tell us some sadistic ways of punishment we will suffer in hell after we die if we didn't follow his guideness .hearing that awful stuff makes me feel terrified and horrible .

my parents believed in god but they didn't pray always , they only fast like the majority of muslims , it was extermly hypocricy. When Ramadan come my mum pray and fast although she is tired and never understand what qauarn does say . I suggested many times to help her to read qauarn but she won't , she said that it will takes decades to undersatnd what allah does say but she believed in god although she never read it . can u imagine to belive in something u never saw or read , she has no clue about islamic religion , but she belives in allah blindly and my dad also fast ramadan but he pray only one time in a day only in the last prayer in ramadan when muslims go to mosque after they fill their stomac . i knew that my dad was pretending like the majority of muslims that he was a good believer only infront of others but at home i rarely see him praying only if he was in difficult time like all the people here.

My brothers never seen them praying ,they said that they are good persons without praying to god .Me too i learned from an early age that i can be a good person without crying and praying to god days and nights .oh i remember also going to the mosque , muslims pretending that they are angels every one act like a prophet , but as soon as they left the gate of mosque they change to ugly persons just like evil , they talk behind each other's back , Gossip , envy; jealousy , cheating ,insult the poor ......And the majority of them have never read the qauran they just believe coz their parents and ancestors are muslims .

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Comment by CJoe on April 29, 2010 at 8:36pm
Wow... how terrible. I'm so glad you're brave enough to go against that religion and to speak against it. Thank you for sharing!
Comment by Michael R on April 29, 2010 at 8:38pm
This is one of the saddest stories I've read. Kids being abused like that. It's sad to see that the same kind of brain washing happens in the U.S. as well.

Hopefully putting your experiences and feels down will be a very positive thing for you. Welcome!
Comment by Gaytor on April 29, 2010 at 9:16pm
Thank you for your story Kiki Kiki. The power and control over people gained from religion is terrible.

Do you think that many youths are changing towards being more secular? Is there any chance that in our life times that we will see Islamic countries shift from Sharia Law to being simply Secular? It's such a long process. In the US, we haven't had the Bible being taught in school (partially true) since 1890. Yet here we are 120 years later still arguing about it. Do they have schools not run under Islamic "rules" available in Morocco?

Thanks again for sharing. It's very helpful in understanding others as we all have different cultures. Sometimes even within a country.
Comment by Mario Rodgers on April 29, 2010 at 9:29pm
I see America slowly undoing the protections of separation of church and state. I already see Texas going downhill like taking Thomas Jefferson out of the curriculum and thinking about teaching creationism.
Comment by Doug Reardon on April 29, 2010 at 9:50pm
Yeah, some of the nuns used to whack us across our knuckles with a pointer when we got something wrong.
Comment by QM on April 30, 2010 at 1:37am
Thanks for sharing your story. I hope the events you have shared can help others realize the fallacy as well and come out of the darkness.

By the way, going to the mosque as a child was quite an unpleasant experience for me too!
Comment by kiki kiki on April 30, 2010 at 3:16pm
thanks to yoo all
Comment by Serotonin Wraith on April 30, 2010 at 4:26pm
Welcome to the site!

If others went through the horrible things you went through during childhood, maybe that's why more people are leaving it now. Or maybe there's some other reason for the recent joining of ex Muslims here.

Any insight into Gaytor's questions?
Comment by CJoe on April 30, 2010 at 4:44pm
Facebook banned them...
Comment by Freeman Thinker on May 1, 2010 at 10:40am
thank you for sharing your experience, to be honest this very moment I feel like pushing forward in continuing my small group lectures about atheism here. May I ask your permission if I could repost your blog at my facebook account so that people here can have more idea about what religion is doing to us. Thank you


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