Sometimes I envy the religious in death!

I am Greg, husband of the recently deceased White Unicorn, Suzanne Olson-Hyde. We are/were both confirmed atheists of long standing - roughly 50 years each - we both gave up religion in our early teens.

But now that Suzanne has 'ceased to be', I am having an internal struggle between my logical self - still DEFINITELY an atheist, and my 'fantasy', wishful thinking self that would love to believe that Suzanne still exists somewhere and that she is being looked after.

My 'fantasy' self can't REALY come to grips with the fact that the "essence" of Suzanne, all her memories, personality, love and humour have simply evaporated back into the cosmic whatever. At this time in my life, I actually envy religious people as they have faux comfort ladled out to them by the faith they have - it really works for them as they don't realise or won't admit, that it is indeed 'faux'. So, faux or not, the comfort is real - for them.

Sadly, us atheists have no such comfort or reassurance, faux or otherwise - Suzanne is not in heaven being looked after by god or his entourage, and I certainly will not meet up with her when I snuff it - for me, at the moment, it all sucks.

I am new here and I hope I have posted this in the correct place/manner etc.


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Comment by Reg The Fronkey Farmer on October 13, 2016 at 7:16pm

Suzanne still occupies a place in my memories. I hope all is well with you Greg.

Comment by Greg Olson-Hyde on October 14, 2016 at 11:25am

Thanks for your kind words. She certainly is uppermost in my mind most of the time - she was a force to be reckoned with and I miss her terribly. I have been working on one of the websites we started together and have put a dedication to her in the footer, if you would like to look at some of her work and the dedication, visit:

Thanks again for your thoughts :-)


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