I saw my P-Doc on Monday, she switched me from xanax,,,I'd been on them for so long she felt I might respond better to a change... to kolodin (not sure of the spelling) 0.5 twice a day as needed , left the Zoloft in the morning at 200 mg and the traxedone at night at 300.
I had an appointment yesterday at, believe it or not, Creekside Counseling in Davis Creek, West Virginia. The creek ran under one end of the house. There was a long porch with wicker furniture including two rockers and hanging ferns and two hefty gray male cats in the window...Jake and Elwood I found out later. It was like going to grandma's house. Except Grandma was an old Hippie like me so we could relate. Don't know about religion, but I asked her up front if my atheism would be a problem. I'll talk to her again about it. I'm going back on Monday. All we got done yesterday was catching her up to speed on the cast of characters, then a quick overview of my situation to date.
Don't misunderstand me. I'm not here for support or therapy. I have my needs met along those lines. I sincerely thank you for inquiring.
I'm getting away from the Out of Body Experience OBE misnomer and borrowing from
Life After Death: A History of the Afterlife in Western Religion
Alan Segal (Author)
Great book, shows the idea of a coherent afterlife was totally new to the world beginning with the Egyptians...or Babylonians, I'm not goot on details. He refers to what others call visions or spiritual events as Altered States of Consciousness, or ASC. His two main classifications are Religious Attributed Altered States of Consciousness...an ASC is triggered by a natural event...seizure, sleep disorder, almost getting killed (NDE is another phrase I want to drive a stake through and bury at the crossroads) experiences...read lately that the number one cause of OBE/spatial dislocation ASCs is fainting? Segal's point is the event happens without spiritual import at all, then the spiritual aspects of the event are attributed to the event after awakening and upon reflection...and with the interaction with the folklore of the fantasy world we live in through all our friends asking if we had an OBE when we were out on the table and who could blame us for taking some small scrap of memory that might have been something so you tell them about it like its no big deal then the next thing you know everyone wants to know the rest so the old repressed memory recovery madness sets in and all of sudden you've got a full blown Near Death Experience being written about in all the books on the subject and it's too late to recant now. Like what I experienced with my childhood sleep paralysis.
Then there's Religiously Inspired Altered States of Consciousness...that's where you bring on the hallucination yourself through chanting, whirling, staring at you belly button (it is true, one of the postures to bring about a visionary experience is to put your head between your legs and breath rapidly...staring at your belly button is probably the most polite of the possible choices) and, my personal favorite, eating the flowers of the field. Most notably, the aminati sacrii...the sacred mushroom that produces a state of religious intoxication endind in collapse into a deathlike coma that lasts three days. That's one of those 'things that make you go 'Hmmm?"