While currently going through a period of low motivation, I'm wishing that some magical power would just pop into my head and push buttons or zap something. When I was a teen, once or twice I think I tried to make a deal with God, something like "Help me with this, and I'll reconsider You!". Never answered, of course.
Meanwhile, science has proven a few times the power of the placebo. Just believe, and things get better right? Is there a way to make this happen, but without presuming supernatural intervention?
I'm at a disadvantage here, intellectually sure that--if there's a soul or power within me, it's just an illusion. But if it feels like Free Will, shouldn't that be sufficient? Science has also recently proven the power of placebo, even when the believer knows it's a placebo! There is a power, somewhere, that can be tapped.
Where is this power? Is it separate from myself, or is it myself? I'm confused! But that's ok, right? The goal here is to not think about it. Just believe.
Just believe in the synapses, dendrites, action potentials; the cosmic power of neuronal networking. That gob of stuff in the cranium. (Oh man, I'm sure this sounds corny. Ok, so be it. Corny on the Gob, then.)
Let there be Gob! So, can I finally settle for this half-belief, somewhere in between reality and delusion?
Won't you join me, as I pray to Gob? No, wait. I'll just imagine that everyone is with me, in spirit.
OMG, it's working already!