Passing Notes & First Posts (An Anxiety Ramble)

I feel like I'm passing notes in class & I'm going to get caught any minute by a very prim, very stern, & kinda scary teacher who can't wait to throw me into detention.

Or maybe, like, a fiery pit of hell. Or whatever.

This is my first blog post and the first time I'm ever publicly outing myself as a...well, you know. (I'm working up to that word).

Oh, something you should know about me--I'm a bit gutless and VERY FREAKING NERVOUS about talking about losing my religion. I've been mentally pacing in front of this site all day before finally deciding to join.

I'm sure at least some of you can relate to constantly swallowing back the bile of years of religious dogma and programming. Still trying to push through all the garbage that fills my head and the chorus of every Sunday school teacher I've ever had ringing in my ears, singing, "You're being led astray!"

I'm still getting used to a site called "Think Atheist" NOT being the enemy. Because that's what you were.

And I guess now that's what I am. 

I have a lot to share & I'm hoping to have many meaningful, insightful conversations with people who have been where I've been, or who're going through something similar now. 

This is my first post. I'm not sure how to end it because then I'll have to publish it. Then it's like...out there. But I guess I should just push that button. I'm gonna do it. Okay.

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Comment by Physeter on July 4, 2013 at 2:57pm

There you go again, trying to confuse me with logic and facts.

Comment by archaeopteryx on July 4, 2013 at 3:13pm

"if you are brought up to be afraid of temptation and 'thought crime'"

Trust me, I was.

Comment by archaeopteryx on July 4, 2013 at 3:19pm

Strega - recently watching a Hitchens debate, I learned that one of the early Christian authors - not Iraneus, Origen or Turtillian, but one of the lesser known ones - wrote that if a woman swallowed a man's semen, it was cannibalism, my first thought was, "And Communion's NOT!???!"

Comment by archaeopteryx on July 4, 2013 at 3:21pm

sorry, can't edit - meant Turtullian.

Comment by Kairan Nierde on July 4, 2013 at 6:09pm

Hey Kamela. Welcome. Like others have said, don't let the high running passions of some of our argumentalists phase you. Also, there are a couple TAers who will play the devil's advocated on any side of a debate...don't ever take it personally!

Congratulations on taking these steps to discovering reality. You're doing a very scary and noble thing...think about it, if there really were a loving God, wouldn't that loving God have wanted you to question everything instead of following blindly? And if every atheist is wrong and every angostic's sniggling doubt comes back to haunt us all, don't you think that loving God would understand our motives and have compassion for us? I really can't see how we're not in a win-win situation. I guess if God were a real asshat and got all judgy, Jesus might have our backs. If not, why would we want to hang out with that kind of God up in the clouds anyway? ;)

Comment by Kairan Nierde on July 4, 2013 at 6:10pm

sniggling. heh. you know what i meant.

Comment by Simon Paynton on July 4, 2013 at 6:12pm

Comment by Suzanne Olson-Hyde on July 4, 2013 at 6:54pm
So good to have you here, Kamela - Everything is a learning curve and it is all good. You have taken the first step in joining this group - one of the interesting things about this site - is when a christian comes to play - and that just re-enforces my thinking about Atheism, and I now consider it fun.

Lots of really smart people here - lots of really nice people too. Everybody learns a lot from this site and it is all good.
Comment by H3xx on July 5, 2013 at 1:51am

Atheists are the enemy of religion like bird watchers are the enemy of soldiers. They may have some strong things to say about the soldiers, but I doubt a bird watcher will pick up a gun and go on a soldier killing crusade.


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