So first off I'd like to apologize for not being around much. Apparently a few of you have missed me and I am sorry. I have just been redonculously busy lately.
And to make matters worse...today was shit.
I had a lovely Easter. All my family came over to my parents' and we had a great lil brunch get-together. Afterward, my mom was driving me back to my apartment in the city. She asked me what I thought of the new church they were going to (where we went that morning) and I sort of gave an ambivalent response. She asked if I missed church at all, and I decided that I wasn't going to lie about this anymore. So one question led to another and she finally asked:
"So what do you believe in?"
to which I responded
"I don't believe in god."
She started crying and yelling. She wondered how I could just give up god after so long. She didn't understand where I got my answers then. She wants to know how I could let science get in the way of my faith (when I told her religion contradicted too much with scientific fact).
She told me...that she felt like a failure because all she ever wanted was to raise good christian children.
What the fuck am I supposed to say to that?
Nevermind that I am a good girl and have never gotten into any serious trouble. I do well in school and am responsible. I am (I feel) a pretty good daughter. Obviously none of that matters. I feel that I could have told her I was pregnant and it would have been less of an issue as long as I still wuvved jeebus.
It went on a bit, then she dropped me off in awkward silence, saying "this isn't the end of this."
Great. Just fucking great.
So this wasn't a very meaty post, but I needed to vent. And who better to share my coming out story with than all my thinkatheist pals.
Anyone else with sticky outting stories have any advice for a very stressed out Sniz?