Growing up I was raised Catholic. But my family wasn't "hardcore" so we didn't go to church much. Yes I was baptized, and did my communion. But I was just going through the motions and didn't really take it that seriously. Then when I was 8 my father was murdered and I grew to hate this God people referred to. I was a young innocent girl and my father was ripped from my home. I thought why would God let this happen to me.
As time passed that thought diminished and I tried to be like the rest of my family and friends and believe. I kept bumping into these church programs that wanted people to surrender their life to Jesus. I went along with it half-hearted. The mindset I had was that it was more beneficial to believe than not the believe. Atheist's don't say you will go to hell if you don't subscribe to what they were dishing out.
But it was becoming harder to go through life pretending to believe something you really arent't. I recently began reading articles and watching documentaries and listening to podcasts. I've always discounted the non-believers because it was mind-blowing to consider the majority of the population wrong. But that is what I believe. I researched being agnostic and I do believe that things are impossible to know for sure. But I don't believe there is a God, so that would make me an atheist. We are not alone because there are billions of people on the earth. We are here for each other to co-exist and enjoy our time here.