After I told my parents I was an Atheist, they have never acted the same around me since. I didn't post this before because I wanted to get familiar with the site and meet some people, but anyways, It all started about 4 or 5 years ago when I was having doubts about the existence of god and I was starting to feel very uncomfortable in churches. I believe I was about 13 or 14 when I told my parents I was an Atheist. The reaction of my mother and what she said to me still hurts me today. After I told her she said "Seth, I should have raised you better and made you go to church more." I had no idea what to say since I was 13 or 14, I just went into my room because I thought I did something wrong by the tone of her voice.
As the years went on she still held it over my head and made me feel as if I "didnt belong" if you will. I know now that was never her intention, she just wanted me to be a "good Christian kid"....whatever that means. But a few weeks go she brought it up by saying "I still wish I would have sent you to a different Sunday school" (I got kicked out of the previous one I was in way back when) I just said back "Well, isn't better that you have a son who is mature enough to make his own decisions on what to believe and not believe in? A son who has his own personality and mind set?" She didnt say anything and just continued to watch TV.
To this day she is still embarrassed and does not like it when I tell people I am an Atheist at family functions. I never bring up the topic first, I only answer when I am asked "Don't you think prayer should be allowed in all schools?" or "Whats your view on religion today? Are you any closer to god than the last time I've seen you?" I don't want to lie so I tell them "No, I do not believe in god, I am an Atheist"....then the room goes silent with my mom sitting in a chair with her face in her hands like I am some freak show. Then when I get up to get a drink, I hear them whispering about me about how satan got my soul or some shit like that. I just go back in and sit where I was sitting and try to bring something else up, like football or something, but I can tell everyone feels too awkward to even talk to me. I just hate it sometimes. Good thing my mom and dad are divorced and my dad is also an Atheist or else I don't know what I would do.
Thanks for reading and feel free to comment anything from advice, similar circumstances, ect.