I need to preface this entry with letting you know I've only recently began really exploring what it means to be an atheist and what implications it has on my life and future. I've known for a long time that I didn't think God existed but never sat down and thought about it. I've now started that process.
I just finished watching Richard Dawkins "Root of All Evil". If you've never seen it I would strongly suggest it.
I am overwhelmed right now.
I am amazed and angered that I was lied to and raised to be afraid of life.
More than anything I want to stop living my life to the expectations of others around me and take the most from it while I'm here. I've spent so much of my life trying to make everyone proud of me by being a "good christian" or always making "responsible decisions". In reality I was scared shitless of disapproval from my family, friends and in the end, God. Why would I place their happiness with my life above my own when I'm the one living it?
Again, I am overwhelmed right now.
I need a hug.