My Journey and a bit about where I came from.

I want to start off by saying how much I enjoy this site. I have learned a lot so far. You All Rock!!!


I am in a fledgling (noob) state of atheism so I am like a sponge for learning more about my awakening. It started not too long ago with my wife's cousin openly expressing that he is an atheist. He made statements that angered me at first. But I was drawn to find out why he felt the way he did. This got me to "bible study" so to speak. Little did I know it got my brain back online with digesting mass amount of reading. My first change was a deistic frame of mind after finding flaws in the "good book". Then I dug in even more reading and more studies which just ended up fueling more questions. So I rekindled my interest in science and was just blown! I could no longer rationalize a belief system that has kept me in the dark for so long. Now I am an Atheist.


The problem now lies in my own household. My family (who still clings to religion) loves me very much but with any major change it has stirred emotions. My daughter has appeared to be the most affected by it. She told her mom that she did not like that I am rocking the boat going into another. So I had to curb my vocal views and keep them in more of a silent mode. I want my family to come to their own thought and conclusions without me trying to ram it down. I do try to display logic and reason when things happen.


It is no surprise that I am here now. My mom who held a baptist style belief never forced them on me. When I look back at my dad (my real life hero and role model) with new eyes I realized he never (best of my recollection) made any religious statements or references nor expressed any type belief at all. Since neither of my parents are alive now I can only guess my dad was agnostic or atheist. 

My dad was a very honorable and very much respected by those who met him. He never had spoke of any ill towards another person. He kept a level head even during times of crisis. He was highly intelligent even though he had to drop out of high to help his parents take care of the family. He always planned ahead. He was always firm but fair while dishing out discipline to his own children in spite of his dad being an ill tempered alcoholic. There wasn't anything that in my eyes he couldn't do if he chose to.


So when I look back I can see why I am the way I am now.


Now I am here in a new extended family.


Please share or comment....I Welcome All :)

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Comment by Walter Maki on March 17, 2011 at 3:19pm
Thank you Nelson. It is good to have a place to go where like minded people can learn and share.
Comment by Heather Spoonheim on March 17, 2011 at 3:47pm
Yes, welcome, Walter, and thank you for such a sincere post. There is no need to be evangelical about your atheism with your family. It is enough that you are re-enforcing your understanding with more knowledge. Just having a couple magazines around, like Popular Science, can leave the door open for your daughter.
Comment by Walter Maki on March 17, 2011 at 6:45pm

I think one of the thing hard for my family to accept is that I appeared to change so suddenly. After all these years of leading my family in a bible based life. I am currently reading dawkin's the god delusion it is sitting by my desk. come to think about it my dad had poplar science mags on the coffee table...hmmmm....I wonder if was silently pointing me in this direction as a child lol


Comment by Heather Spoonheim on March 17, 2011 at 6:50pm
Lol, it would be a shocker to see someone go from regular dogma to Dawkin's Delusion in a day. :)
Comment by Walter Maki on March 17, 2011 at 6:52pm

Another thing about my dad was he never shown any ill towards anyone based on belief, race or sexual orientation. I guess that's why I have been the same as well. Plus that is what I show my children too.


What boils down to is my dad raised me right.

Comment by Walter Maki on March 17, 2011 at 6:59pm

I can thank my wife's cousin for the reading material. When I'm done with this book he has more.

Maybe I have been an atheist all my life and was just caught in a fairy tale.

From what I gathered my daughter feels like this cousin put the ideas in my head.....I think he was just helping me do some mental housekeeping.

Comment by Walter Maki on March 17, 2011 at 7:19pm
Go figure that science was my favorite subject as a youth.
Comment by Jeremy S on March 17, 2011 at 8:00pm
Hello Walter.
I am in the same boat as you are. I just recently de converted myself. My wife on the other hand wants nothing to do with it. I am trying to give her space and hoping she comes around on her own. I just bought the god delusion yesterday. She seems supportive of me having my own beliefs and luckily my children are young and haven't been indoctrinated yet. I found this site the day I finally admired to myself that I no longer believed in god or the bible. It is pretty much the only outlet that I have to learn and read an feel connected with people that share my disbelief. I never had an atheist that showed me the way and I kind of think that would have been better. I find myself frustrated that my wife will not even listen if I bring up science or the bible. I think she knows that god and the bible can not stand up to the scrutiny. Is it similar in your house hold? How do you deal with the frustration? Thanks and welcome.
Comment by James on March 17, 2011 at 9:13pm
Thanks for sharing your story, Walter. It was quite sincere and interesting. Welcome to T|A and enjoy thinking and learning! :)
Comment by Walter Maki on March 18, 2011 at 12:52am

Howdy Jeremy :)  

It is quite similar in my house too. At first I got frustrated too and to not let my emotions get the better of me was hard. When I feel strongly about something I get a child like enthusiasm (which funny at my age (47) and just want to get what I think and feel out there. I have come to the conclusion that is better for me to show by my actions instead. Also to show that I am still just as much a loving and caring person, but just without the dogma and spiritual luggage. Everyones journey is going to be different, but since I do have years of life experience in dealing with people does help. I too came to this place to build up a support unit. What little insight and wisdom I have acquired I am more than willing to share if it helps others along the way.


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