This is so strange, because it hasn't happened to me before with someone so close to me. Ever since the school year started, I've been a bit more public about my Atheism because the diversity of my school graduated with the seniors, so I've been trying to get more people to "come out" about their faith or lack thereof, or anything that they've been hiding. I want to help preserve the fact that high school is a place of both experimentation and exploration of self, (and is where I, and a friend of mine realized that we didn't have to pretend to be religious).
Ever since then, I've been left by a group of friends of mine. It wasn't something I was too worried about until I received a note, explaining that they felt uncomfortable around me because of my Atheism, and someone even had the gall to ask me if I couldn't just "try harder" to believe in God. The true shocker about this is last year, when I officially came out as an Atheist, they were all for it, and supported me.
I'm not quite sure how I feel about this. I mean, I could cast this off as a stupid teenager problem to overcome so I can finally feel as adult as my reading material (Newsweek, not Harlequin, :P) or I could confront these "friends" and ask them about their sudden change of heart.
Also in the letter, each friend (three of them) stated that they felt they had to censor themselves around me, or they did not feel comfortable and quoted the 2nd Corinthian's passage on not yoking themselves with nonbelievers. This is especially shocking as one of them only recently became "strong" in her faith and never mentioned anything like this before. She was also very open minded.
I don't know. Perhaps this blog post will condemn me to the "kiddish" side of TA, and I'll just be another teenage Atheist with teenage problems. Am I being irrational in wanting to figure everything out? Am I censoring myself to be respectful or censoring myself to avoid confrontation?
Maybe I'm just experiencing my first time being "left behind".