When I first realized that there were different religions in the world, that was one thing that got me thinking about what I was told to believe. When I realized that there were many different genres of books in the library, I asked my mom what type the bible was. All I got was, "It's not a book, it's the bible". Any legit question I had about religion was met with a final answer where I dared not question any further. I'd asked what we were and all I got was, "we're protestants" as if that was all I needed to know. I have no real idea what that means and how that made me unique.
High school philosophy class was where I really came to think that religion was just based on mere belief: that there was such a thing as "religious philosophy" made me realize that belief and knowledge were 2 vastly different things and that the 2 get confused. Just because you believe something doesn't mean you know all you need to and that the stronger your belief, the more it seems like truth or knowledge. Other people's religious convictions hold just as true to them while they think of christianity as a belief. What was so much better about christianity? It was only the most popular and indoctrinated as far as I can remember. I remember not knowing the lord's prayer when I was the new kid, but nobody taught it to me and nobody needed to, for it was said so often that by the end of the year, I knew it. I still do.
In my twenties, I considered myself more of an atheist than an agnostic. I came out to a childhood friend of mine and her reaction was as if I'd joined a cult. Her reaction scarred me and I've rarely trusted anyone with coming out.
As the years progressed, I read some books, mainly, "Is God A Racist?" that I'd found in the library, "The Woman's Encyclopedia of Myths & Secrets", "Classics of Free Thought" and a few others that drew me further into atheistic belief. I was so drawn to these types of books and unstimulated by anything religious that was suppose to be good for my "soul". I've even tried to read the bible, but I found it too ludicrous to even get through Genesis.
Anyway, since my dad has had a few seizures, he believes that he's a born again Christian. My mom believes that if you're not Jewish or Muslim, then you're a Christian. Since I do live with my parents, there's no way I'm going to come out to them. I'd rather lie than break their hearts, although I believe my younger brother is onto me. If anyone outs me, it'll be him and I'd be ostracized.
Anyway, I can't imagine becoming a believer again. I saw Julia Sweeney's interview with Craig Ferguson
some time ago, even again on youtube, when Craig confessed that he use to be an atheist, but a dog at a crosswalk and its knowledge of the crosswalk sign convinced him that only god could guide that dog. If anyone else has seen this interview and correct me, please do so. The point is: his justification just seemed ridiculous and convinced me that there's no rational or sound reason to believe in god or any other gods, namely the most shoved-down-our-throats god that's being pimped out by believers and his flock. One can't help but get angry when surrounded by believers talking about it all the time, like being a vegan at a pig barbecue or a lesbian at a Chippendale's, or, well, you get my meaning.
Anyway, if anyone thinks I'm not "atheist" enough, go pick on someone else because I'm not interesting in proving myself to you for your own mischievousness.
Seriously, I'd rather exchange ideas than duke it out out of boredom.
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Yeah, I'm single, but I'm not looking at all, in any shape or form.