God is not punishing me

I'm here waiting for the doctor to determine if I should go today for surgery or if it's going to be tomorrow, I have internal bleeding, I was put under treatment however the medication didn't work. The danger is if it's let alone I could get a blood infection and end up poisioned by my own blood or get an internal hemorrage. My family and friends are completely sure this is related with me being an Atheist and god giving me a lesson so I return back to Catholicism. I don't think so. I'm sure all this is related with me being an "organic" being, that necessarily has to get sick from time to time, even die. So in Science I trust. I trust in my doctor. I trust that once the procedure is done, everything will be "just fine" and I will return back to normal. I am sure in few months this would be long forgotten. I refuse to take it as a punishment.

Just yesterday I saw in the news a girl that posted in her tweeter "thank god for another year of life" and died a few minutes later. On the same day of her birthday. I didn't know if I should laugh or feel bad for that girl.

So god is grounding me with a condition that can be and will be treated while he punishes a believer with sudden death.

What the hell is wrong with him?

No way I'm going to give in just now, just because something that is part of life itself happened to me. I'm not going to take this as a signal. I will keep my belief in Science. I know if I repent it won't change a damn thing and I will be in the hospital regardless. There's no turning point for me. Not today. I will face my adversity the best way I can.

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Comment by Rocky Oliver (LotusGeek) on January 27, 2012 at 4:26pm: Get better. Fuck god.

Comment by Dave on January 27, 2012 at 5:17pm: Thinking of you. It's in times like this that so many religo-nuts think atheists will convert, good on you for sticking to your views. I hope you have a speedy recovery!

Comment by archaeopteryx on January 27, 2012 at 5:32pm: Gabriella,

You weren't clear as to the cause of your bleeding. When I was 19, I developed an ulcer that was so bad, I couldn't drink milk without having heartburn. The cause was excess stomach acid churned into my stomach from worrying over how to please everyone in my life and still HAVE a life.

I decided that I was mature enough and intelligent enough to make my own decisions. I further decided that life was to short to spend it trying to please everyone I loved, so I began living my own life, for myself, and now eat raw onions with impunity.

Well, not with total impunity - a lot of people avoid standing directly in front of my breath --

pax vobiscum,
archaeopteryx
www.in-His-own-image.com

Comment by Suzanne Olson-Hyde on January 28, 2012 at 1:26am: If there was a god, he wouldn't let anybody get sick in the first place. You have to trust the person who has trained at Uni, practised many years, and has profound knowledge. You will have a speedy recovery. Just relax and go with the flow :)

Comment by Serzon on January 28, 2012 at 9:08am: I'm sure that there is a bigger chance that science heals you, then god!

Comment by Danny Sanchez on January 28, 2012 at 10:47am: Please get better soon. I really like you

Comment by Walter Maki on January 28, 2012 at 11:35am: My hat is off to you Gabriella. I am only partially disclosed so only those who are real close to me know I am an athiest. Well being raised old school and not having the energy to debate with theist at this time I have had to exercise tact to the 3rd degree while hearing about all those who are praying for me. Well guess what? I felt nothing while in the hospital besides needles and stethoscopes. I did earlier on from an unknowing theist comment that it was not my decision when I said "I'm not done yet". I just let it pass for now. Science is my religion so to speak :P lol

I don't claim to be better than most people...but I do try to be more practical than most.

So once again my hat is off to you Gabriella :)

Comment by Gabriela Menicucci on February 8, 2012 at 10:29am: Hola all! Everything went very fine and I'm feeling so good now, THANKS for the good wishes, looking forward to keep in touch with all of you. Ciao ciao!

Comment by Robert Karp on February 8, 2012 at 10:30am: Great news Gabi! Thanks for the update!

Comment by archaeopteryx on February 8, 2012 at 12:16pm: Hola mija! Really, please stay in touch - you are never alone! Vaya bien!

pax vobiscum,
archaeopteryx
www.in-His-own-image.com

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