It's inevitable that any adult will tell you, life can bring unexpected problems that just....knock the wind out of you.
I'm facing a moment like that.
It's when you suddenly realize that everything you thought would protect you - won't. When you find out that your plans didn't work. When one moment you were on top of the mountain, and now you're at the bottom of an avalanche.
So I'm taking my 5 minutes of self pity...and then I have no choice but to get up and do something about it.
Fear is the most paralyzing of all emotions. I am a creature that freezes up in fear, and every movement hurts to try to overcome it.
There is this concept of a "Survivor" meaning that you've somehow overcome adversity. Anyone who has been through anything (which is all of us) could say potentially that we're survivors...but when does it stop? When can we be at peace? When does the harshness of life stop being harsh? When can we rest? Truly rest. When will we feel safe?
How do you find tranquility when you are stuck at the bottom of Maslow's pyramid? How do you overcome the stress of not being safe? How many times can a person lose everything and still stay sane? How do you escape the cycle - for good? How do you make good decisions when you are scared?
When does it end? How many times can you break a person before they can no longer be put back together? Why when you've done everything you can do is it never enough to really....thrive?
How many broken hearts and smashed dreams can a person endure in a lifetime?