I couldn’t sleep last night because when I think about not existing (common for me before bed) it gets hard for me to turn off my brain and fall asleep. I’m sure I can’t be the only one, so I usually just lie in bed and think about comforts of death in Atheism (and maybe a few jabs at Christianity) and I just thought I’d vent a little.

-Rambling start’s here: Christians are so fed up with the idea of everlasting life, but have you ever stopped and really thought about that, eternal life. I’m skip hell because it’s a blanket idea of suffering forever, and it’s pretty clear that suffering forever is bad; what’s more important is focusing on the desirable idea. Heaven, eternal bliss, let’s say you’re a good Christian and you go to heaven and have a conscious state. Let’s start with the biggest thing, seeing your loved ones. I think that this is the backbone of Christian hope. An advanced thinker may realize with no consciousness you cannot miss the world you have left, but what about dealing with those that have left you, thus a way to cope with that is created. The idea is when you die you will be reunited with everyone again, forever. So in heaven you’re reunited with all your loved ones, yay, but what about the born again Christian alcoholic, abusive parent/spouse, sexual predators, ext. Getting to heaven is not based on your ability to change and be perfect; it’s simply based on being “truly sorry”. Does the son have to face the dad that raped him, or the step mom who relentlessly beat him? How about all the people who have lost a spouse and get remarried, guess heavens really going to test your ability to love all your fellow Christians, when you have to share your wife or husband’s (I know you get two murders off, but does god still honor those divorces he forgave you for?). Is it just me or does heaven sound like the most drama filled high school you’ve ever heard of (um and that is my idea for a TV show so hands off!). This is where some Christian will say something like “but god’s love is so great that no suffering is possible in heaven”, which reads to me “in heaven you have no free will”. Humanity has shown that it will not unconditionally love, so why will that change in heaven. God will just make it better, God will force it to be better? So now I’m stuck in heaven, FOREVER, with no free will and with a bunch of people who are sorry about the horrible atrocities against their fellow man. Good thing there’s forever to work it out because I think that’s about how long it’s going to take.

               Anyways I’m still rambling, that last part was a bit juvenile, but it had a point. Eternal consciousness may not be a good thing. Do you want to see how the world ends, our star burn out, the fall of the human race and be “aware” of that forever? As an atheist every second of my life is so much more valuable. I will miss my life when it’s gone, but I won’t because I won’t realize it. Ahhh, sweet victory, but since my seconds are numbered it makes me work harder and spend more time with the people I love; I don’t just enjoy being happy or exited but value when I’m sad or angry. It gives me so much more appreciation for every conscious moment I have.