Ever since I found my biological family and learned of my story, along with a combination of many other factors in my life, and things going on, I have felt a strong pull back towards the realm of some sort of higher presence. I do not like how it has been playing out in my life.
For example: I went to church with a friend last week with the intention of just getting out and being social and letting my son play with his little friend.
What ended up happening is that I actually found myself getting roped in emotionally.
There are lots of things that have happened lately and I won't bore you with the details. Ultimately I am just going through a time of really a battle within myself...it is very hard to explain.
I know there is no god, and yet I feel pulled toward...something.
I don't know.