I don't believe in a God, Gods, or God, but how I arrived here is most perplexing. I was raised Catholic; I was baptized, made my communion, my confirmation, and was good friends with a priest in my local parish and still am.
However, I've been cursed with curiosity. 'Why' and 'How' are two words that I can't put a leash on. I'm a voracious reader. I read everything: literature, science fiction, science fact, horror, biographies, memoirs, and mythology. Which leads me to, The Bible. The Bible is an awesome book, I love it! The stories are highly varied, colorful, and creative, but historical - nah. You see when I was learning the stories of the Bible for my communion I just didn't view them as historical - just fantastic tales.
Anyhow, I remember the first time I felt the whole religion thing was wrong. I was in my communion class and we were learning about sacrifice. I don't remember the story but the teacher told us that some sheep were sacrificed for God... WHAT!, WHY? Now, I was only about 10 or 11, but I just could not understand why God wanted people to kill animals for no reason. My confusion stemmed from the fact that didn't God create everything? Why did God put it here if he wanted it to be just sent right back to him. Am I crazy? How does killing sheep prove anything? I figured at the time that I was just too dumb to understand this profound lesson in sacrifice. Whatever...
Time passed, I've read much more, thought much more, and have emerged on the other side. I am a quiet Atheist, albeit a radical one. I don't and won't get into arguments. I did at a time. I read books for 'ammo' when hording off the legions of theist. I was young and ready for the great debate.
But things have changed, I freely admit I am an Atheist. I'm angered and saddened by how the world views Atheist. Sometimes I wonder if Atheism will ever become dogmatic; I sometimes just want to drop the label, discontinue my membership to this site and just be a person who doesn't believe in God, doesn't give it a second thought, and doesn't give a shit.