I'm here waiting for the doctor to determine if I should go today for surgery or if it's going to be tomorrow, I have internal bleeding, I was put under treatment however the medication didn't work. The danger is if it's let alone I could get a blood infection and end up poisioned by my own blood or get an internal hemorrage. My family and friends are completely sure this is related with me being an Atheist and god giving me a lesson so I return back to Catholicism. I don't think so. I'm sure all this is related with me being an "organic" being, that necessarily has to get sick from time to time, even die. So in Science I trust. I trust in my doctor. I trust that once the procedure is done, everything will be "just fine" and I will return back to normal. I am sure in few months this would be long forgotten. I refuse to take it as a punishment.

Just yesterday I saw in the news a girl that posted in her tweeter "thank god for another year of life" and died a few minutes later. On the same day of her birthday. I didn't know if I should laugh or feel bad for that girl.

So god is grounding me with a condition that can be and will be treated while he punishes a believer with sudden death.

What the hell is wrong with him?

No way I'm going to give in just now, just because something that is part of life itself happened to me. I'm not going to take this as a signal. I will keep my belief in Science. I know if I repent it won't change a damn thing and I will be in the hospital regardless. There's no turning point for me. Not today. I will face my adversity the best way I can.

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Comment by Robert Karp on January 26, 2012 at 9:53am

Gabi please keep us updated. I will not pray for you but I will be thinking about you.

Comment by Stephanie Cabrera on January 26, 2012 at 11:03am

I'm sorry that ur family and friends are telling u that u r being punished, that is truly awful! The worst thing to do and sit back and believe that God will have his way with u. U are the only one that can determine ur fate, and as long and u believe u will make it through, u will! Goodluck with everything =)

Comment by Brian Emerick on January 26, 2012 at 11:50am

I hope everything works out!  I had appendicitis for three days after Thanksgiving.  I decided to go in.  One more day and it could've burst, I could have went into shock and maybe died.  They got it out, and I recovered.  Then they thought it might've had cancer in it, so that was a long 4 days wait.  In the meantime people on facebook "prayed" for me, and my Grandma called to tell me the same - "I'm praying for you, no matter what you think."  Well, it wasn't cancer, and I'm fine now.  I'm sure those that prayed thought they helped, or that maybe "God" caused me to go into the ER initially.  But the truth is, it was just life, and it happened, and I'm ok now.  And you will be too!  :)

Comment by Steve on January 26, 2012 at 12:00pm

Also what is wrong with your family? They believe in a deity that gleefully tortures people just to satisfy is psychotic need to be worshiped

Comment by UnTarded on January 26, 2012 at 3:28pm

Faith in god, or trust in medical science? Seems like a no brainer for me. Good luck and get well soon!

Comment by Violet Chartreuse on January 26, 2012 at 4:22pm

I'm sorry that you have to deal with this on top of all the mental stress that physical illness and medical treatments bring with them.  I know just what you are going through.  My son was diagnosed with cancer this past summer.  Friends and family all barroged us with phrases like "God never gives us more than we can handle" and "The sooner you start believing, the sooner God can start healing".  And it is clearer to me now than ever that there is no God.  I put my faith in science.  It won't protect me like a Lucky Rabbit's Foot, but the results are at least based in reality.  Stay strong.  They love you and want to comfort you when they feel so very helpless.  Treat them kindly like you would an ignorant child.  Thank them for their concern. Tell them that you are glad that they care so much.  Right now, you can't get into debates with them -- while you are trying to tend to your health.  When all is said and done, you can  smile at them and tell them that you came through .... all without god's help. Hmmmm.

Comment by michael palmer on January 26, 2012 at 7:32pm

the captain and her ship right on girl stand firm with your head held high get better youll be in our thoughts and if he is real hes sadstic and dosnt deserve worship

Comment by Ed on January 26, 2012 at 8:01pm


When you are over this physical opportunity that has presented itself to you and your feeling sharp again I would ask the ignorant friend/relative of yours that implied your becoming an atheist brought this ailment upon you one question. What would be their excuse as to the origins of your physical problem if you were still a believer? Why would a god worth worshiping allow his followers to become ill?

“Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then he is not omnipotent. Is he able, but not willing? Then he is malevolent. Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?” 
― Epicurus

Comment by Jacob LeMaster on January 26, 2012 at 8:48pm

Thinking about you Gabby.. heal up at a quick but steady pace :)

Comment by IEatDinosaurMeat on January 26, 2012 at 10:20pm

So... god is punishing you for thought crimes? What a gracious god. We're pulling for ya Gabriela, get better.


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