I'm going to admit something here that I can't discuss with my family: I suffer from borderline personality disorder.
I've tried explaining this to them, but it never goes well. They tell me I need to pray, that god will grant me peace...all the usual garbage that people who don't believe in therapy vomit out to people who desperately need it in order to keep the brain from lashing out against themselves.
If you've read my past blog posts you can probably see that my family is…Continue
For a moment I felt a pang of guilt. After getting into countless arguments about atheism not promoting a radical and hateful agenda there it was in black and white:
An Atheist killed 3 young Muslims over a parking spot.
What are we to do? Obviously our moral leaders should get together and condemn…Continue
Anembryonic gestation (also known as a blighted ovum) is a pregnancy in which the very early pregnancy appears normal on an ultrasound scan, but as the pregnancy progresses a visible embryo never develops or develops and is…
I enjoy pondering the things I have no grasp of, I feel like I am in good company. I don't know if these thoughts will lead me to a deeper understanding of the world I live in, but I know that if I were to abandon thinking as a useless waste of time then I would become useless myself.
I find myself tired by people trying to restore my faith. Their version of reality is so truncated, so stifled, that it feels like I am debating life with a puppet wielded by a madman's hand. I cannot…Continue
Only something as actively ignorant as religion could come up with the concept of men giving birth to women. It takes a keenly stupid mind to look upon the biology of mammals across the globe and come to the conclusion that in the instance of humanity above all other creatures, man came first, birthed women into existence and then passed the buck on to her along with the pain of childbirth. Mixed in with this slight, also comes the dominion over women because of the belief that gods created…Continue
You know, sometimes I feel like I am pretty vain in my blog posts here. Other authors on thinkatheist post such awesome studies they've come across, or causes they support. Me? I talk about the stuff in my life. I justify it by telling myself that maybe it will help someone out there like me realize they aren't alone.
I just finished spending three weeks with my parents. I attended mass, I had passionate discussions about the nature of god with my mother, I helped her with her rosary…Continue
I feel like I am about to boil over and burn.
Some back story...because I don't know if I've mentioned this before, though I'm certain I have.
I was molested by my grandfather when I hit puberty, so was my older cousin...so were many of our friends before it happened to us, and after. My grandfather felt up a little girl at my grandmother's memorial service.
When he died I was thrilled. Not relieved, not filled with the urge to forgive, not at peace...
Dear Mom and Dad,
As you have known for years, I am an atheist. I'm not the strongly worded, well educated physicist that you imagine when you hear that term. I know less of stardust than the strongest voices of the movement.
I am not "angry at god" I am not "trying to justify a sinful life." I am as boring as I ever was, and my typical day has less to do with my lack of belief than trying to get my son to sit down and do his school work.
Do not take my lack of rage as a…Continue
Okay so my post about my religions class has ruffled a few feathers and inspired quite a bit of rage. Yes I agree that the assertion that atheism is a religion is ridiculous and that the professor should read more before making claims about us... The story I shared was not supposed to be about the professor's slip, stupidity happens, and I don't expect him to know everything. Furthermore I think calling out the big dogs to shut him down will do two things:
I'm taking a world religions course. This isn't in an attempt to see if I can detach my retinas via eye-rolling but in a sincere effort to know the opposition. When someone asks how I can say no religion works for me I want to be able to give an answer.
I still live in Texas though, so every single religion touched upon is compared to Xtianity. The class is 90% Xtian, there are 3 atheists and a Buddhist, but the rest all smugly remark on the folly of n religion to their own.…Continue
I study fairy lore.
This isn't a statement about studying religions of the worlds or anything, I actually spend quite bit of my free time researching and reading about fairy mythology. I find it interesting.
In a way, fairies were the original gap fillers. Those things that acted with no understandable rhyme or reason, things that killed babies or blighted crops. Called the "Good Folk" so as not to offend them. I love reading about them. I have volumes on the…Continue
Sometimes I feel like people have their brains stuck in the mud.
I had a conversation with a friend who placed the blame of the fall of Rome squarely on the shoulders of homosexuals. When I explained to her how that was historically inaccurate, she then leaped into an accusation of how the repeal of DOMA will upset the human eco-system.
Before someone asks, she did not offer an explanation, perhaps because she felt it was self-explanatory.
Her mother is of the same sort…Continue
It has been a while since I've shared a conversation with a friend on here, it's been a while since I've had one to share. Most of my friends have come to accept my lack of faith and religious debates with them have been sparse. There is the usual nonsense from my family of course: Bombarding my facebook page with god nonsense, pleas to return to god, comments of my goodness being a sign that god is working in my life...the usual unremarkable statements that everyone new here posts about…Continue
I have labeled myself an atheist for the past two years.
Two years of denying the gods of the people around me, two years of abandoning religion. Two years of arguments and tears and explanations.
Still, I find amazing peace in being godless.
"So when you look in the sky you see nothing..."
Someone once tried defining my lack of faith as a lack of wonder. Because I don't see gods I don't see joy or goodness. I tried explaining that they were…Continue
As a woman, as a mother and as a student surrounded by creative young men and women, I am often chastised by others for not being tolerant of religion. I am told that being an Atheist requires just as much assumption as being religious and that in my dismissal of all faiths I am ignoring the good that religion brings into the world.
I do not believe that there is any good that religion, any religion, is doing in the world.
I think that every faith promotes ignorance,…Continue
Ugh, so it's been an entire month of holiday garbage. From the passive aggressive nature of my family during their meal time prayers or my parents trying to shove their Catholic bullshit down my young son's throat.
I want to scream at them, but I don't. I keep the peace and don't respond to their faces how angry they make me. So here it is, every response I have kept in my head.
"No mom, I may not believe in Jesus but I still like celebration because it is time I get to spend…Continue
It's been a long time since I've written anything here, and if I felt like reaching into my magic hat of bullshit excuses I could blame any number of things, like writing and directing shows, or who knows what.
The truth is I've just been cowering. I've been huddled in the corner of a theological no-man's land. That place where many of us shift uncomfortably in our seats, often not wanting to speak for fear of misspeaking. It started a few months ago.
My grandfather died. The…Continue
If you've read my blog in the past you've probably seen my furious rants about my idiot of a best friend. You know, the one who has called me morally inferior and hell-bound?
Well after exactly a decade of being loyal to him in spite of his special brand of bullshit, we are no longer friends.
He sent an email to my husband (not me) telling me that we were no longer friends. No reasonable explanation, just some ridiculous babel over wanting what's best for me because he felt he…Continue
Recently a good friend's mother died. It was very sudden and heartbreaking.
My friend is an atheist like me, and I can only hope he isn't being flooded with the usual garbage of "She's in a better place," or "She's watching over you now."
I remember when I lost my grandmothers I was filled with this pain, this realization that these wonderful women were inaccessible to me. Unfortunately I was religious at the time, and my first years of grieving were filled with guilt and…Continue
My mother recently came to visit me. She spent the past 4 weeks pushing her religious garbage onto my son when, after she told him how god would want him to act, he responded, "Nana, god isn't real! God is bad!"
So while I was at school she made him recite prayers and tried to scare him with godly behavior (he's always watching and all that crap.)
If I were agnostic then I doubt I would care so much, but this pernicious seed of belief could ultimately drive a wedge between me…Continue
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