When raised in a home with a permissive mother, who resented her overly baptist upbringing, and a uninvolved father, raised to be independent yet supportive if not emotionally distant father, I was able to be initially influenced by my baptist grandparents. Of course their influence extended to a childhood belief that the jolly green giant was real, as they regularly ate canned vegetables, which would eventually lead me to explore multiple facets of fantasy as possible worldview...but ultimately everything kinda didn't really work...eventually after dabbling and studying Buddhism, Shintoism, voodoo, and other various Wiccan or pagan rituals and beliefs I became more of an empiricist as I entered adolescence.
In my teens, my interests turned to ethics and morality as my disgust of reality and hatred of people grew. As I entered college I began finding redemption of humanity through the works of Nietzsche and Kant. Kant's categorical imperative and Nietzsche's nihilism on morality and then his Overman concept helped bolster my constitution.
Throughout college, although not the best student, I was able to gain an understanding of simple chemistry and biology as my studies became more and more leaning towards psychology and sociology.
Why are you here?
To better verbalize my understanding of the world and existence.
The religion you left
Was never a part of one
Why you left your religion.
I like my sanity...and as much as I would like to believe some of the fantastical thoughts and ideas, that may make you feel all warm and fuzzy, that many religions present...I just can't.
And anyways, my overly religious paranoid schizophrenic aunt that was murdered on christmas day, 1998, really concerned me after learning of heritability as I have always exhibited multiple signs of schizotypal and schizoid behavior...so I was a bit concerned regarding my connection with reality...And a psychotic episode when I was 20 that had me feeling very foreign and unconnected to family, friends, and basically my whole life, as if I knew I was living in an illusion of place...so I try to stay grounded in reality through skepticism, trying to be objective, and rationality.
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