I was a Presbyterian [from the Protestant Branch of Christianity]. I became an atheist because my entire belief system just sort-of "fell apart." Suddenly, nothing about Christianity made sense any more. And when I would attend a worship service, I would feel "detached."

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Hi Cristynfaye,

Don’t mind the questions at all! Like you say in your post, this deconversion thing can be pretty lonely: all of my best friends from my whole life have been believers, and I find it very hard to speak openly with all but one or two of them about my loss of faith. Like you, I’m hoping to connect with a community here that can approximate some of what I became accustomed to as a member of a spiritual family.


When I was 20, I trained with a team at Abilene Christian University to spend two years working as a missionary in Cameroun with the Church of Christ. The ten of us spent 8 months learning French. But then “rival missionaries” from within the country who heard that we planned to baptist active polygamists blocked our entry :-/ and myself and my best friend ended up coming to Quebec instead, where I worked for a year with a small francophone church. Ended up staying in Quebec, doing my graduate studies at a French university, and here I remain.


My wife totally transitioned out of our old church (= cult, The International Church of Christ a.k.a. The Boston Movement) before I did, but a believer she remains. I think she believes I can’t really be an atheist, that this must be due to the *other* crisis in my life. At present, I still attend church with her and our sons (which is often quite uncomfortable these days), although my four best friends in the church know I say I no longer believe in God. (Of course, they’re hoping I’ll repent).


Would love to connect with your husband as well: is he on here? I’d be interested in hearing the process he went through to shift his paradigm and perhaps hear what advice he could give me in my marriage to a strong believer.


Hi Darrell, 


I think my husband started to make a TA profile, but I don't think he's finished it.  I'm sure he will get around to it sooner or later-and I know he wont mind talking to you about his process/journey/whateverit'scalled.  


It's hard for those who are still christians to understand what it's like to lose your faith.  I hope you've been able to maintain some friendships with people who can accept you for who you are.

Hi everyone,

I guess I was just your ordinary evangelical non-denominational christian.  Towards the end, I was getting really interested in Eastern Orthodoxy, but I don't know if I ever would have fully committed.  Anyway, I wouldn't really call myself an atheist, I guess I'm more agnostic.  I don't think I'm ready to completely give up on the idea of God.  My husband is an atheist though, which is weird because he used to be the most devout christian I've ever met.  He started questioning things during college, because he has a degree in Bible history.  Then he totally lost his faith in his first year of seminary, right after we got married.  I was terrified, and thought I'd made some awful sin by marrying him when clearly he wasn't the person God had planned for me because now he's an atheist.  LOL....anyway, I started having doubts and questions after he started explaining his process and some of the things he'd learned in his studies.  I realized that I did marry exactly the right person, and now we're blissfully happy in our unbelief.  :D


I've been getting kind of discouraged lately because all of my friends have kind of drifted away.  No one really seems to understand how painful it is to lose your faith, and how lonely it can be.  So I'm really glad to find this community, and some people to connect with.  I think that's the thing I miss the most....the solidarity and support that you (are supposed to) have in church.

My last religion was messianic judaism. I really liked it because it tried to tie the two testaments together. I kept (loosely) kosher, observed the sabbath and the feasts. It was very exciting.


My rabbi was a self-centered jackass. Between his "teachings" and the courses I was taking from First Fruits of Zion, I began to realize that they were telling me that everything I learned as a gentile christian was wrong.

So I decided to research the bible independently, decide what the truth was and findva church that most closely matched what I understood the true teachings of the bible to be. I started with Joseph because I figured that of the Genesis age characters, he was the one most likely to have actual proof of his existance.

It didn't take long before I began to reslize that there is no evidence that Joseph ever existed. Hmmm. Joseph? No. Moses? No. The exodus? No.

Now things really begin to unravel. If there is no Moses, there was no exodus; how could there be a "law"? And if there is no law, why would there be a need for a savior? So I started looking into the history of Jesus. Yep, nothing.

I knew that I presented holes like these to a muslim about the koran, I would expect him to renounce Islam (and embrace Christianity). So I knew that to be intellectually honest I must do the same.

So I did. I was aprehensive at first, but as time has passed (3 years now) I am positive that I did the right thing.

To any searching Christians how may be reading this: One of the things I was concerned about was God's disciplining me for rebellion. If you have those concerns, put your mind at ease. There is no god to "discipline" you.


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