I only wanna know if you , ex muslims, feel the same as I do or not !!

Ok ; as an atheist who lives in an islamic country, and in order to stay on the safe side , I know for sure that I shall keep my thoughts for myself .

It 's like acquiring a new  skill . I learnt how to kill those religion debates that may disclose my secret ; I also know how to return any invitation to the mosque , I have millios of excuses now ... but when it comes to Ramadan , ahh , I just don't fit in anymore !!

 you know , you cannot drink, eat  or smoke outdoors and get away with it , you havee no excuse for that !! you know if you do that ,you will be jailed or , if lucky enough, injured and spat on by fellow muslim citizens !

   Indoors  , I can drink water , I always keep a bottle in my room ; as for food I prefer fruits because they are easy to hide ! the problem is with cigarettes ;I cannot smoke because of their smell that stays for so long  !!

 I know Ramadan is extremly  holly to muslims and I really don't wanna shock my family !! as I said before I am keeping this for myself and two other friend ; nobody else knows !! I am not satisfied !

 how do you feel about this stupid month ?????