You just wrote my story...couldn't agree more.
The hard thing is trying to "catch up" later in life.
Home schooling made this all a bit more of a staple in the head for me... Adjusting has been quite the thing.
That was gonna be my answer :)
Thinking I had found god only to realise it was all bullshit and then having to consider everyone around me as fucking nuts until I figured it out a bit more.
When I was in 8th grade I had lost my virginity. & when my mother found out she went back on her recently made promise & beat me, she punched me kicked me, stomped be & called me a dirty bitch the whole time. After that she made me see a therapist, who not only was a friend of hers but a Christian therapist as well. For the 6 months I saw her I'm sure she was telling me mother of everything I said. During the sessions she would ask why I acted against god and had sex & do I think Jesus would help me & make me a better person...