You just wrote my story...couldn't agree more.
The hard thing is trying to "catch up" later in life.
Home schooling made this all a bit more of a staple in the head for me... Adjusting has been quite the thing.
That was gonna be my answer :)
Thinking I had found god only to realise it was all bullshit and then having to consider everyone around me as fucking nuts until I figured it out a bit more.