I have been an atheist for quite some time now, but there is this one thing that sticks with me that I can't shake. I never saw the entire movie, only portions of it and I was quite young when it came out, but for some reason, it had a profound effect on me. It scares the bejezzus out of me. Just hearing Tubular Bells creeps me out.
So if I don't believe in any gods, why in the world does this still have this effect on me after all of these years? I know it's fake, I know it's pea soup, but it's no ingrained in me, that I haven't been able to convince myself that this is just plain silly of me.
I know it's not rational, but it's still there and once a year I have to deal (or really not deal) with it=avoid it, change the channel etc.
Does anyone else have something irrational they deal with? Or maybe had, but overcame the feeling/thoughts?
I'm kinda the same way. I've never seen The Exorcist, for me, it was the possesion scenes in Evil Dead (I know, its a cheesey movie, but it still gets to me).
I know there are no such things as demons, but for me, I think its the idea of not being in control of myself that really terrifies me about those kinda films. Fundamentalism really puts the fear of "teh Devil" in you as a kid. They don't bug me like they used to, but come Halloween, I tend to steer more towards "Alien" and "The Thing" or traditional monster movies.
Thank you for sharing. You write very vividly and I could all but see your wind (we call them dust out here in the SW) devils. And I was kind of creeped out as well :-)