It felt so wrong, it felt so right..lol...

I really am that low in life that I seem to be turning back to God.

Lol

Crazy huh?

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Would it be more correct to say that you went to Church to experience the community spirit rather than to find a God you know is not there?

Most Christians are good people. They don’t go to church to praise god. They go to meet up with a community of people they can relate to. You can gain from that but just be aware that eventually there may be a price to pay if you tell them you that you do not believe what they believe. Are there any other community groups you can join that are not religious?

Would it be more correct to say that you went to Church to experience the community spirit rather than to find a God you know is not there?

Yes...........and yet I found myself praying....you know? I felt that desperate, even though I knew it was nonsense.

I found myself praying....you know?

I know you weren't talking to me, but I don't know. What is prayer other than saying words in your head addressing [God | The Universe | Some higher power]? Is it different than that for you?

Yes, exactly :)

Sorry Belle, "Yes, it's different"? or "Yes, it's just talking inside ones own head"?

It is also possible that going to church took you back to a place in your memory when you felt that you were on the 'right path' and that there was a god in the heavens who cared for you - all very comforting when you maybe felt like you needed comfort.

However, you also had the freedom to walk out of the church and ignore it. Having a secure escape route enables us to test out potentially complicated scenes a little further.

Standing on your own two feet is a lot harder than it seems, if in your past you've been lulled into believing a higher power will carry you if you prefer.

I remember many years ago, coming out of a subway (tube) station in London one dreary morning, feeling deflated. There, outside the station, was a huge shark - well a man in a big stuffed shark costume. Weirdly, when I grinned in surprise, he offered me a hug. I totally accepted, and for a couple of minutes, there I was in the city, suited and booted hugging a big squishy shark. It made my day. I can't remember what the promotion was for, but I really needed that hug on that day.

Does that mean I think I need a stuffed shark in my life? No. I just needed a cuddle, and found it in an unlikely place.

Persuading yourself that God loves you as long as you follow those rules, once you've realized there's no god is probably going to be a harder task than getting toothpaste to go back in the tube.

Hugs, Belle :)

It is also possible that going to church took you back to a place in your memory when you felt that you were on the 'right path' and that there was a god in the heavens who cared for you - all very comforting when you maybe felt like you needed comfort.

I've heard it all a thousand times, but this time is different. This time it has taken on something different. I am honestly at this place where I have literally........nothing left in me to fight. You know? And I find myself hearing what they say in a new way that I never understood before. As broken as I've been in the past, right now it feels much worse. Right now I am at a new rock bottom.

Whatever works for you.  Make use of whatever you can. 

There's a lot of truth and validity to it if you understand what's behind it, and you can keep your bearings. 

Belle...any social activity you can get from a church...you can get in secular places (and none guilt you into donating their money).

http://www.meetup.com

http://www.couchsurfing.com

http://www.seattleatheists.org/3rdthursday

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Only you might actually become friends with some of these people outside of the activities. There are sports, hobbies, groups that visit art galleries and openings, writers cricles, single moms in the park, martial arts groups, classical music lovers, gardeners, speed dating, salsa dancing card games, bowling teams, cinema freaks, socialist drives, volunteering and on and on and on.

I understand that the nostalgia comes back and reminds you of an old feeling (when things were maybe slightly less complicated) but wouldn't you prefer doing an activity with people who have the same interest and doing something you are actually interested in?

You're intelligent enough to be a critical thinking atheist. And you're inteligent and sensitive enough to be able to form friendships (even if it takes time). I highly recommend you take the plunge in one of these groups or something else and not get discouraged if at first it doesn't work out.

I agree with everything Davis mentioned. Meetup.com is great and meeting like-minded atheists for intelligent conversations is a must even if you still embrace the church community to some degree.

I can't believe I am saying this, but...the truth is that I am skeptical of my own atheism, and that is very scary to me. I dont like it.

We would be fools if we didn't have skepticism per being an atheist (a tiny itsy sliver of a doubt is quite enough).

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