That's just so deep Marisol.
You are so right. I have also lost a child but not to suicide. I couldn't begin to put myself in your shoes. But I hope that somehow you find your happiness again. Even though that enormous part of you has died.
I felt, I'll just have to try to make the best of what's left. Everyone needs to grieve in their own way, yes. I've found that sleep seems to be the only real relief when it comes to grief. It's a very unpredictable emotion.
Thanks for sharing that.
Just realised it's an older thread. but still just wanted to say my bit.
Derek, I know this is an old post, but I wanted to reply anyway. I lost my son Danny, age 26, to suicide last year. Not once did I turn to prayer or the "supernatural". I face my loss straight on, and redirected my grief in preventing suicide. That is the only thing that saved me from my own despair & depression. I currently volunteer for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention, as well as do advocacy work. I was in Capitol Hill a month ago talking to Senators & Representatives about suicide, prevention and urging them to co-sponsor legislature that helped prevent suicide and addressed mental illness. Here's a pic of my son, Danny, superimposed over almost 2K other faces lost to suicide.