When I was 12, told my very religious mother that I wanted to be an astronaut. (Not exactly a traditional Christian female aspiration.) She very swiftly told me that I was not smart enough to make that a reality and that no one could really understand god's universe. Shortly after, like a good girl, I reevaluated and told my parents I wanted to become a minister. Athough they were much happier, they expained I could not because our religion refused women in the clergy. At this point, I gave up at turned my focus toward theatre. They were content with this choice. Ha! Now that I look back, I can see that I was looking for answers.
Would I change things if I had another chance? Yes. I would have chosen to follow my original dream. Although I certainly love to follow astronomy and planetary science, at 40 years old I am behind on the learning curve. Additionally, I would have come to embrace atheism much earlier on in my life - something that would have undoubtedly changed my outlook on life.
Dreams are a lot like prayer. They mean nothing unless you have the will to take action yourself to make them come true.
Life does not come the way I planned for.
I dreamed to be a doctor but instead, I studied nutrition.
I did not get a chance to be accepted into the faculty of medicine.
In the year 2001, opportunities were very few at that time.
Thanks for your encouraging words! :) ♥
As a kid, I wanted to be President. But as I got older, I realized it would never happen(it's complicated, but I'm a natural-born leader. I know how to make decisions and I often make the right decisions for a group, I'm also a great caretaker for things, and people trust me--but I don't have the right body or 'look' for a policitian--I learned this at the age of 8-10-ish)
I wanted to be an astronaut. But I'm too fat. They don't let fat people in space. I was informed of this at 11.
I wanted to be in theatre or dance for a long time. But theatres and dance companies don't like fat people. I learned this at age 14, that they won't even hire you if you don't exude that youth and sexualized image.
Around 16, I started writing. I have been ever since. I don't feel like I have my own 'style', yet, I feel like I'm still copying. I hate writing poetry and avoid it at all costs, I'm a natural storyteller, and I love constructing vast universes to play in. I've come up with several video game ideas, specifically aimed at girls who are very literary, in the vein of Bioshock and The Path, focusing more on discovery and knowledge, kindness and growing, rather than violence, which most popular ones are all about. I dislike violence most of the time.
At 18, I wanted to go into chemistry. For the Money. I was told I was smart enough to do it, but my heart was never in it. I took one semester of it and switched to Anthropology.
Around 19-20, I was hoping to go into working for a museum.
Right now, at 21(I'm turning 22 in March), I'm not sure what my life will end up looking like. I have a good work ethic, but I'm almost paralyzed with fear, at the thought of applying for jobs, and being turned down outright due to my size.
I love clothes, I would love to do costuming for theatre, I would love to do set design or set building(I know a lot about odd jobs and house repair, my father is in construction and has no boys, so as the oldest I got to do all the jobs while he supervised and told me what to do), I would love to travel the world, I love to cook, I'm very good at it, especially when it comes to cobbling together a meal from odd ingredients. I love writing, though, I enjoy constructing stories in any form. I plan on writing a play for the final project I have in Blount. I am an artist, as much as I hate the snobbery attached to the form.
Currently I am looking at going back to school online somewhere to get a basic degree in Computer Sciences. I'm decent with computers, I understand coding---I am just very lazy. I see no reason to work for 5 hours on something I can generate in 20 minutes otherwise. My usual preference is to work smarter, not harder--which tends to be a problem in "schooling", where they usually prefer for you to work harder, longer, faster, but not get too much more work done.
I could always start my own cult. That'd be a hoot.
I'm just going to ask it straight away... Why are you fat?
This must be the most detailed post on this discussion so far.
Allow me to show you(these were taken last fall for a fatshionista Outfit of The Day):
And this is in clothes that are rather slimming on me to begin with.
I have had this fact drilled into me since I was young, and I have always been "large" for my age. I currently weigh something like 320-something, but I haven't weighed myself in forever. I'm a size 26 on bottom, which is loose-ish(I hate tight clothing), and more like a 20 up top.
It occurs to me you could be asking "how I got to be fat"
I just--am fat. That's how it is. I cook for myself. I eat veggies. I walk all the time. I can jog up several flights of stairs easily. I've always been fat, I've been on numerous diets and the only thing that 'worked' was near-anorexia(I wouldn't eat in high school, then I would come home and exercise for 2 hours with freeweights, the only meal of the day was the dinner my mom cooked, if she cooked at all), and that got me to a size 20 from a size 24, already cusping on a size 26. And I gained it all back when I started eating again.
I quit diets a few years back, and obviously I may be -fatter-, but I feel -better- physically.
Some people are just fat. If you want articles or links and scientific data, I can totally give you some but this place isn't the place to discuss it(I have no wish to threadjack).